15/52 of 2014

A portrait of each of our children, each week of the year 2014.
James continually blows me away with how much he is learning and developing.  Sometimes I feel like I never really had a toddler.  He went straight from baby to pre-teen.  The doctors say he talks at the level of a 4 year old, and his reasoning skills seem perfectly mature, so I sometimes forget to just let him be 2.  I get super stressed at the sign of any “rambunction,” but when I take a step back and think of how agreeable he is 99% of the time, I can put things into perspective and just let him be loud or sassy or “the boss” for a little bit.  I’ve noticed, too, that every once in a while he’ll test the waters of new behavior (which can be super frustrating to the mom…) but things normal out within a few days and our relationship is back to being perfectly fun.  It’s amazing to see how much passion he can have for things (Legos, Batman, milk) and really lights my heart on fire to see him full of so much love for life.
Charlie is a dream boat every second of the day except the seconds between the hours of 11:30 pm and 4:00 am.  I am starting to get really discouraged by his sleeping habits.  I feel like I’ve really been able to stay afloat this whole time (I bet because I’ve made it a habit to read my scriptures every day) but I feel like sleep deprivation is starting to dictate my life and define who I am.  And I’m starting to get anxious at bed time and irritable at the thought of what the night will hold.  I feel like I end up doing whatever helps in the moment, but it ends up just reinforcing all the negative habits.  So basically, unless he just all the sudden figures it out one night, I have no idea when I will ever sleep through the night again.  One day (and Diet Coke!) at a time, I guess!