Do not read this post if you are looking for inspiration:

The past few weeks have been hard, to say the least.  Last week Mother Nature was holding my patience and, well, sanity hostage and then John left for three days and I kinda sorta had a lil’ breakdown.  Plus my family is all out of town so I was feeling pretty abandoned, I guess.  I mean, I couldn’t even go hang out with my sisters or mom while my husband was gone, which left me with a huge pit in my stomach for some reason.  But I did have my sweet brother to keep me company here and there.  It’s hard to align our schedules, but he has taken good care of me the past week or so.  
I’ve still been struggling, though.  I’ve been trying to be brave.  I’ve been trying to figure out how to cope.  But there are just certain things going on in my life and in my heart that I haven’t had to approach before, so I’m kind of at a loss for how to let them be a part of me now.  Change is always uncomfortable, I guess, but you usually get used to new ideas and new situations.  I haven’t gotten used to anything yet, and it’s starting to scare me a little.  But I am grateful for the challenge I face of adjusting to a new reality and am excited for the person these trials are making me in to.  I guess I’m just really emotionally tired.  And to make matters even better, I woke up this morning with a major bug.  My voice is gone and my body aches and I have a burning cough.  Joy.  
So I guess I’m just asking that you keep me and my little family in your thoughts and maybe send up a prayer or two on our behalf.  I could use a little extra strength and perspective right now.  
So grateful I have this little guy, oh my goodness….

8 comments

  1. Alli from Life on LeRoy says:

    OH that picture totally made my day! Look at all those teeth. Trust me girl, I’ve had my fair share of these times in my life, but you do get through them. It may take some time, but just take care of yourself and your sweet family. Change is always a bugger! Call me or text me if you ever want to chat – you have my #. Love ya! XOXO

  2. LaynahRose says:

    You know what? Being emotuonally tired is the worst! The stress and lack of sleep is what made you sick, I’m sure of it. What’s that country song…”it seems like the hard times circle around – a couple of drops, and they all start pouring down”

  3. Crystal Lillge says:

    I think this post was absolutely inspirational! Real is inspiring. Here’s the thing, you laid it all out…you’re tired, worn out, and basically in a rut. BUT, you wrote this line: “But I am grateful for the challenge I face of adjusting to a new reality and am excited for the person these trials are making me in to.” Hello, inspiration! You’re taking the not so fun cards that you’ve been dealt and instead of totally dwelling on that, you are looking ahead and confident that this is happening for a reason and you’re going to be better because of it.

    Stay strong & know you have all sorts of random bloggers that will take real over “fluff” any day. Plus, baby pics put a smile on anyone’s face 🙂

  4. Crystal ~Skittle Bug~ says:

    Oh Jess, I’m so sorry you’re struggling! And not having family around during struggles REALLY sucks, totally. I’m so sorry. I hate to see you having a hard time. But I totally LOVE how you said you’re excited to see the person these trial are turning you into. So awesome that you still have that perspective in mind! Okay, so I know I am really, REALLY not your family, but I am not working right now and have a little free time. We should facetime some time!! Yes? haha. I think it’d be fun. Think about it.

    Love you my darling!

    xo

  5. Courtney B says:

    I totally understand what you are saying in this post… I am going through the same thing, but in a different way of course. It is SO easy for me to feel lost these days…. but I know through faith and prayer I WILL figure out how to handle these new trials and emotions!
    I am definitely, DEFINITELY praying for you and your sweet family!!

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