The past few weeks have been hard, to say the least. Last week Mother Nature was holding my patience and, well, sanity hostage and then John left for three days and I kinda sorta had a lil’ breakdown. Plus my family is all out of town so I was feeling pretty abandoned, I guess. I mean, I couldn’t even go hang out with my sisters or mom while my husband was gone, which left me with a huge pit in my stomach for some reason. But I did have my sweet brother to keep me company here and there. It’s hard to align our schedules, but he has taken good care of me the past week or so.
I’ve still been struggling, though. I’ve been trying to be brave. I’ve been trying to figure out how to cope. But there are just certain things going on in my life and in my heart that I haven’t had to approach before, so I’m kind of at a loss for how to let them be a part of me now. Change is always uncomfortable, I guess, but you usually get used to new ideas and new situations. I haven’t gotten used to anything yet, and it’s starting to scare me a little. But I am grateful for the challenge I face of adjusting to a new reality and am excited for the person these trials are making me in to. I guess I’m just really emotionally tired. And to make matters even better, I woke up this morning with a major bug. My voice is gone and my body aches and I have a burning cough. Joy.
So I guess I’m just asking that you keep me and my little family in your thoughts and maybe send up a prayer or two on our behalf. I could use a little extra strength and perspective right now.
|So grateful I have this little guy, oh my goodness….|