Love: A Story {part 4}

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“We were dating three weeks when he told me he is in love with me.  It was the best night of my life.  I had wanted to say it for at least a week before that, but knew that I should wait and let him say it first.  We both deserved that.  He was leaving my parents’ house and we were just hanging out at his car before he took off.  We were talking and talking, like we always do, then he got quiet and pensive for a second.  I asked him what he was thinking and he said, “I think I want to tell you something but I’m not sure I’m ready.”  I looked at him with a smile, knowing exactly what he was referring to, and said, “That would be something you’d want to make sure you were ready to say before you said it.”  He smiled back and gently thanked me for not pressuring him, gave me a kiss, and started to drive away.  

I walked inside and not two minutes later heard a little knock on the front door.  I opened it to find John, who pulled me out onto the porch.  He took my hands and looked me square in the eye and said, “Jessi, I love you.  I am in love with you.  I couldn’t hold it in any longer.”
I was so giddy!  I told him, “I’m in love with you too, and I’ve wanted to say this for a while now, but I’m so glad I waited for you to say it first!”  It was simply magical.  We talked about it for a few more minutes and held each other for a few more minutes after that. He explained to me that he fell in love with me the night we had gone to this Demolition Derby, all dressed up like rednecks, and danced the funky chicken together down on the course at the halftime show.  On the drive home I was singing along to this rap song I had on my iPod about the law of chastity…. He said that was the final straw, and that as I was singing, he looked at me and saw the most beautiful woman he’d ever seen before.

 I actually remember being really scared the next day that he was going to think he shouldn’t have said it so soon, that he wasn’t sure he really felt it.  I didn’t hear from him all day and was convinced he was taking the time to think, to over analyze.  My default emotion was fear of abandonment and lack of faith in our relationship, but then he came over that night and was so loving, vocally and physically.  He definitely loves me out loud, for all the world to see and hear.  He has told me that he’s just so proud of me and to have me.  He certainly has renewed my faith in men and in myself and I don’t worry anymore.  Worry of any kind is gone.  I’m at the point now where I think to myself, “Was I ever worried?  Was I ever sad?  Was I ever afraid of being abandoned?  Was I ever betrayed?”  John has made up for all of it.  Heavenly Father has made up for all of it.  I love John so much and am so grateful Father has blessed me with this experience.  I am a new woman because of it.  John has done everything right.  I can’t believe I could have missed out on him…”
At the demolition derby, the night he fell in love with me. 
Tune in next time for the final installment!


  1. Amy says:

    This is so so beautiful! I got chills just reading it! Your guys’ love for one another truly shows through your writing. And I am so happy that God led you both together in His perfect timing 🙂

    PS I got so excited when I saw your email! I can’t wait to respond, just waiting until I get off work (yes I’m at work, I’m a bad employee, I know) so that I can give the response the time it deserves. 🙂

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