No Vacancy:

The past few months I’ve been feeling this sense of urgency to get the most out of my happiness.  I’m not even sure what that means, but I have become this crazed detoxing-my-life-of-negative-influence fanatic.  I think this stems from a lifetime of trying to please people, which in some situations has made for some obligatory relationships that end up being destructive to my spirit.  Ever since I’ve become a mother, though, and have experienced this kind of Joy, I feel like I want to get rid of anything that infringes upon
that Joy and fill all the new ‘vacancies’ with only things I love and that make my soul sing.  Granted, there are things about life that I HAVE to address that might not bring me true happiness, but I have gotten to a place in my heart where I will govern whatever I can and be more in control of my Joy.  Here are a few of the things that I dearly love that I have invited more abundantly into my life lately:

homemaking

I am happier when I take the time to have a clean and tidy home and make my husband’s life easier by having a warm dinner ready for him when he gets home from a long day.    

parenting

Granted, my role in James’ life right now isn’t so much parenting as it is care-taking, but I truly feel a difference in my day when I prioritize him, am present in his world, and actually SEE him and FEEL of his light, instead of trying to squeeze him into my day with everything I have to get done.

my family

Particularly my sisters and my mom.  I am my truest, rawest self when I’m around them and they actually LOVE me for that!  I don’t have to worry about what they think of me or if they’re judging me.  I know they understand my heart and my intentions and they build me up through their friendship.  It’s just so . . . relieving.  

creativity
I think now that I’m out of school and can invest the time into it, I am going crazy with creativity.  I’ve never felt like this before!  I want to paint . . . I want to write . . . I want to sing . . . I want to craft . . . I want to design . . . I want to arrange . . . I want to illustrate . . . I want to host . . . I want to whittle . . . I want to read . . . and I actually DO all these things {except the whittling. . . so far}!  It frees something inside me when I’m creative.  

true friends
I am continually humbled by the people in my life who think I’m something special and have invited me into their circle of intimate emotion.  I need these people so much.  So many times I do not feel worthy of such incredible friends, but they are still there for me, ready to lift me and to believe in me and cherish my feelings, without expecting anything in return.  You know who you are! 

taking care of myself
I spent nine months neglecting myself while I was growing James {happily!} and have recognized that it is time to prioritize myself again {not as the first priority, but to just raise me up on the list of priorities a little more}.  I try to eat healthy and be active, pamper myself weekly {at least}, get ready each day, pretend to be confident, believe that I am beautiful, and nurture my spirit often {ideally, every day}. 
So, as you can see, I am filling my life with wonder these days.  My happiness belongs to me and those closest to me.  It’s all ours!! {insert evil laugh here}  But don’t worry, we’re willing to share it with you all, too, if you promise not to be a bum.
No offense, Negativity, but there just ain’t any room in my life for anything that might dampen my spirits, so you’ll have to look elsewhere.

weekly pampering sesh

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